Insecurities
By Darryl Duke. Filed in Fear and Insecurity |Tags: addiction, alcoholism, insecurities, self-confidence, self-esteem
It took a lot of different experiences in my sobriety for me to achieve the level of self-confidence I have today, but there are still some situations when I can feel a lack of confidence or assurance and begin to experience self-doubt. In those times however, I use the inner strength I’ve built to assure myself that everything will be all right, and remind myself how it was actually unwanted and adverse circumstances that helped me to become a stronger person in the first place. It’s so wonderful to feel good about yourself when all you felt most of your life was inferior around most people. Although I often tried to cover up this feeling by pretending to be something I wasn’t and by drinking, inside I knew the truth, and as a result I was never truly happy. So where did this self-confidence I’m talking about come from? Well first let me say that true self confidence doesn’t come from worldly achievements. I believe that what ever created life and the Universe must have had a reason for it, and it is this basic belief that has been the foundation of both the spiritual and personal growth I’ve obtained over the last five years. It’s these two types of growths combined that has filled me with the self-confidence to know that not only can I work through any insecurities I may feel, but also any fears. Although people try to use things like job titles, fame, and wealth to give them a sense of self-confidence and self-esteem, many still remain insecure in they’re lives and some have glaring self-esteem issues. On the other hand, when someone tries to live by practicing a few spiritual principles like love, kindness, understanding, and tolerance, they end up feeling a confidence and satisfaction in themselves that they never felt before. Even people who have made great strides in personal growth can be happier in life by giving spirituality a try. Of course spirituality can mean having faith there really is something rather than nothing that created this life and our Universe for a reason, and it’s this belief that can be the hardest part for some people to grasp. However, with much perseverance I found that as I continued to practice love, kindness, understanding, and tolerance, even though I often failed at it, I eventually couldn’t help but feel a confidence and satisfaction in myself, and an ever growing belief in a creator I call God.
